I like being alone. I like my thoughts to be heard without drowning in the constants chatter and opinions of others.
I like waking up to an empty house and playing the same songs I’ve been listing to all week on repeat (FKA Twigs new album).
I like waking up early to eat breakfast and then going right back to sleep.
I like wasting a few hours of the day on an old TV series I've committed to watching after the hype has died down a bit (The Walking Dead).
I love wishing I could just go back for a bit but then realize how much I rather just stay where I am.
I spend my day wanting to make better eating choices and maybe put on those cute workout clothes I insisted I would use but, always somehow falling victim to the easy to reach carton of ice cream.
I think pizza, ice cream and cupcakes are in fact a food group and a balanced meal. I spend my money on absolutely nothing (I’m the worst at managing money). The only living creatures I can truly relate to are cats and thus being a cat lady is my contingency plan for my life.
I spend most of my free time scrolling through Tumblr, Instagram and watching sappy romance anime. I come up with shitty trendy tattoo ideas that my faithful friends thankfully shut down.
I live in one of the biggest most exciting cities and yet, I feel absolutely alone and bored.
I moved to New York to find something...and I guess I’m still trying to figure out what that is exactly.
I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life... and for the first time I say that with a smile on my face and very little worry in my heart. I guess I’m going to stop trying to think I can control anything and just let life show me the next step. Ignorance is bliss?
“Life is like a long hallway of doors, you peek through a few and try this and that...” till you walk through the one you are meant to? (Not sure a whisky drinking Mexican Cowboy said something along these lines the other day).
I always think I’m right. I’m stubborn, hard headed and sometimes stand behind things even I know are wrong just to be right. I hate being told what to do or sometimes told anything at all. I dislike most things and even more people. But secretly I know I love everyone.
People amaze me, frighten me and most of all intrigue me.I love to learn, to be proven wrong and to laugh.
-Ariel
